IN THE BEGINNING
As I await my turn to be sent out once again for the nth time and experience how it is to be human, I can't contain my excitement. It has been too long since I've worn my fleshy garmets. Yes, it is deliriously happy here but there's a part of me that wants to have another try. To experience it all over again.
Then, John, my spiritual mentor and trusted guide, smiled at me and gave me a gentle shove on the shoulder. He said to me,"So, you're going back again ey? It's been a long time since when?" , then he gave me a mischievious grin. Of course, we have been through so many lifetimes before ( i wasn't just aware of him when I was inside the EARTH program, he was just a silent but persistent code technical support).
"Yup! One go at it again and see if I've improved." But our conversation was cut short when my name was called. "Karel, you're next!" said a booming voice from behind the console.
Then I was ushered in a very pristine and august hall. There at the end is the all-too-familiar face of my good friend Eli. His smile made me feel warm all over. He said in his soft, melancholic voice,"Karel, are you ready?". "Yes" I've answered telephatically. He continued,"You have come back so many times, but I can't blame you, this EARTH program is the most problematic code we had, with so many bugs.. but with the most challenging scenarios that will really leave an indelible mark on you." He said in a grave tone.
"But, this time it would different. First, you would not find Elizabeth in there. " "What??? I asked, quite confused. For Elizabeth has always been with me, through all of my travels and missions, my soulmate. My mind was paralyzed with fright, how could I survive this ordeal without her.
"Hush now..." Eli said. "In this program, Elizabeth would be scattered. "W-h-a-t? Scattered? but how, why?" My mind was going limp.... thinking of an excuse to escape.
"Listen Karel, I would not put Elizabeth's persona as one whole persona. I am thinking of dividing her in several entities and experiment whether it would be the same. I would like to test, if the whole given as one prestation is the same as giving the subject as separate entities that you would pick and try to piece together as the years go by."
"I don't understand Eli, what do you intend me to do?"
"I would put Elizabeth in several persons and experiences you'll have in this lifetime. I'll give her essence in different personalities that you will meet along the way. You will not have one great love but many friendhips, relationships and experiences in this life that you will try to put in your heart to form Elizabeth. I want to know if you're keen enough in finding her true essence."
I was speechless and afraid at the same time. I've never done this without Elizabeth, and yet I have this stubborn faith that whatever form she'll take I'll certainly find her. So, I looked Eli at the eye, took my mission notes and said,"Alrayty then, I am up for it."
"Well done my good friend. I wish you luck but I have great confidence that you'll find her somehow."
And so, as John led me towards that chamber of life, where I would be ushered to the realm of EARTH. I put all my memories aside and murmured, "Elizabeth, whatever happens I'll find you."
Then, I am now in my 25th year. I've met people, friends, experiences that made me think of Elizabeth. Eli, wasn't wrong after all. Elizabeth is with me... being with me.. and will be with me. All I have to do is be aware.
As I await my turn to be sent out once again for the nth time and experience how it is to be human, I can't contain my excitement. It has been too long since I've worn my fleshy garmets. Yes, it is deliriously happy here but there's a part of me that wants to have another try. To experience it all over again.
Then, John, my spiritual mentor and trusted guide, smiled at me and gave me a gentle shove on the shoulder. He said to me,"So, you're going back again ey? It's been a long time since when?" , then he gave me a mischievious grin. Of course, we have been through so many lifetimes before ( i wasn't just aware of him when I was inside the EARTH program, he was just a silent but persistent code technical support).
"Yup! One go at it again and see if I've improved." But our conversation was cut short when my name was called. "Karel, you're next!" said a booming voice from behind the console.
Then I was ushered in a very pristine and august hall. There at the end is the all-too-familiar face of my good friend Eli. His smile made me feel warm all over. He said in his soft, melancholic voice,"Karel, are you ready?". "Yes" I've answered telephatically. He continued,"You have come back so many times, but I can't blame you, this EARTH program is the most problematic code we had, with so many bugs.. but with the most challenging scenarios that will really leave an indelible mark on you." He said in a grave tone.
"But, this time it would different. First, you would not find Elizabeth in there. " "What??? I asked, quite confused. For Elizabeth has always been with me, through all of my travels and missions, my soulmate. My mind was paralyzed with fright, how could I survive this ordeal without her.
"Hush now..." Eli said. "In this program, Elizabeth would be scattered. "W-h-a-t? Scattered? but how, why?" My mind was going limp.... thinking of an excuse to escape.
"Listen Karel, I would not put Elizabeth's persona as one whole persona. I am thinking of dividing her in several entities and experiment whether it would be the same. I would like to test, if the whole given as one prestation is the same as giving the subject as separate entities that you would pick and try to piece together as the years go by."
"I don't understand Eli, what do you intend me to do?"
"I would put Elizabeth in several persons and experiences you'll have in this lifetime. I'll give her essence in different personalities that you will meet along the way. You will not have one great love but many friendhips, relationships and experiences in this life that you will try to put in your heart to form Elizabeth. I want to know if you're keen enough in finding her true essence."
I was speechless and afraid at the same time. I've never done this without Elizabeth, and yet I have this stubborn faith that whatever form she'll take I'll certainly find her. So, I looked Eli at the eye, took my mission notes and said,"Alrayty then, I am up for it."
"Well done my good friend. I wish you luck but I have great confidence that you'll find her somehow."
And so, as John led me towards that chamber of life, where I would be ushered to the realm of EARTH. I put all my memories aside and murmured, "Elizabeth, whatever happens I'll find you."
Then, I am now in my 25th year. I've met people, friends, experiences that made me think of Elizabeth. Eli, wasn't wrong after all. Elizabeth is with me... being with me.. and will be with me. All I have to do is be aware.
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