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Times like this... you can just fake it...




Whose to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lose your self-esteem along the way
Good god, you're coming up with reasons
Good god, you're dragging it out
Good god, it's the changing of the seasons
It feels so great, so follow me down

Fake it if your out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, your such a fucking hypocrite

You should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way
Good god, you're coming up with reasons
Good god, you're dragging it out
Good god, it's the changing of the seasons
It feels so great, so follow me down and just...

Fake it if your out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong
Fake it if you feel like infection
Whoa, your such a fucking hypocrite

I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake with the best of them all
I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake…
LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring,
it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my …
The Best Movie I've Seen this year! (Across the Universe)

If there is a band that influenced me the most, it is the Beatles especially John Lennon. When I heard that there is a restaurant in Greenbelt 5 called John and Yoko, I had to go there even if I had to feel intimidated by the members of the upper-uppa strata of Philippine society. Anyway, I digress.

Pogs was gushing about this movie since last year and when I heard the soundtrack, I told him that my favourite song is "I wanna hold your hand..." I swear, I didn't know the story behind the song in the movie at that time :)

The movie touched a sensitive chord. It featured a lot of songs by the Beatles sung with such emotion and panache by the main characters. TV Caprio who played Prudence in the movie was a Filipina (every main character in the movie came from songs from the band - Jude, Max (Maxwell's hammer), Lucy, and Prudence (Dear Prudence)). She was the one who sung my fave song "I wanna ho…
Lessons learned...

Why oh why am I in this situation? I guess, the universe wanted me to learn some life's lessons that will be difficult for me to grasp. It's hurtful sometimes to realize that I am not perfect. I am a little rough at the edges and pathetically an idealist. As my friend Jo reminded me, "Two people in a relationship are like two rocks being rubbed together to smoothen the rough edges..."

Yes, I am swallowing my humble pie almost everyday. I guess, I met my match. It hurts sometimes to just stand there or sit while she delivers her sermon. But she always makes sense and I am totally awed by her street smarts. I teach her not to be rude and to be polite while she's teaching me how to be patient and how to communicate (not giving the cold shoulder everytime there is something wrong).

Although I am sorely tempted to put a tracker on her phone, I have to trust her. The universe is teaching me: patience, trust and of course how to distinguish between …
Getting there...

"Kelan kaya kami magkaka-apo?" When this type of conversation comes up during family meals, my brother and I just look at each other and smile :)

Famous words from my dad when he saw Brokeback Mountain, "Kaya nagugunaw ang mundo, dahil sa kanila..." Major effort to keep a straight face...

"Kasalanan sa Diyos!" When my mother talks about being gay.

Sooooo.... gulp... gulp... gulp....

AMEN!