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From the past, to the future...

I went to the house of a dear friend. I haven't seen her for quite some time but I was adamant to see her because as the saying goes, "As you grow older, you need friends who knew you when you were young..." I have known her since high school through college and she was one of the primary influences in my life. Another good reason to visit her was that she lives in UP Diliman - my favorite place on earth. Every visit to UP gives me comfort and this is the place that I have been happiest.

She has a cute daughter now. She was the least motherly of our group then and I was curious as to what kind of mom she is. Then I saw her with her kiddo and I knew that motherhood suits her.

We talked from 8 pm to 2 am. Yep, I was forced to go home because I have to work the next day but sharing the past with someone can be helpful in facing your future.

"Ba't nga ba nawala ka sa barkada?" my friend asked....
"Ah eh... naaalala …
Return to the familiar...

Emo-moment:
My best friend was looking at my old ID picture (long curly hair and all) and he suddenly blurted out.."I miss her.." Hay.. I miss her too...
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I missed my old life... thus I am crawling back into it and it's giving me the utmost comfort. My friend is right,"Buti na ang vacuum keysa magulong buhay..." Amen!
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I am now back to my reading fits. Jessica Zafra's Twisted 8 - I think she published this book for her friend so he can make money as her publisher. This seems to be some sort of best of twisted 1-7 and her blog, hayyy... I just wish she changes her writing style. A friend lend me her copy of the Golden Compass and OMG it is good :) It is way better than Harry Potter, that I am sure.

TV is on. Yes, it has been gathering dust because I don't like watching TV. Watching Anthony Bourdain, no Food Network channel... drat!

Back to my old life, staring at blank walls and dreaming.... and it feels good...


AMEN…
Remarks to the Androgynous



(Photos of Shane from the L-Word.. Aydol!)

Since I cut my hair short, I have been mistaken as either a boy or a gay man. Yes! I am used to it by now, but the only thing that I am scared of is being mistaken for a man and being body searched (yep, nakapkapan na ako, and it was traumatic, hahaha).

Some funny comments:

- I am ordering my usual Burger Mc Do Meal with Sundae and the cashier asked me, "Sir, ano pa order niyo?" Then, using the girliest voice, "Pa-upsize naman." Then, priceless, the shock on her face and then she said, "Yun lang po ba ma'am?" hahaha..

- Another food chain, same scenario, but the greeting went, "Hi Sir, ay, ma'am pala.." pati sya natawa.. hahaha.

- The cashier at the local supermarket, "Sir, 540 po..", then I just played along... "Sir, i-separate ko ba tong shampoo?" Then, as she was putting the stuff on a plastic bag, I told her..."Uy, ma'am ako.." The sho…
Life is bearable when we're together...

We need our friends to make life bearable and worthwhile. Don't be afraid to reach out because everyone is a little damaged and needs someone to tell him or her that she or he is loved even if we're far from perfect.

Have a loving and pleasant week!
When the melancholic meets the jaded....



La vie boheme... it's in the air. The craving for change and the escape from normalcy and reality. Are we nearing the real Aquarian age? There is an unrest that is bubbling and struggling to be released.

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What do you get when the melancholic meets the jaded? Interesting match eh? One is struggling to escape from the self and the other living inside a wall that cannot be easily torn down. Each will learn from the other. The melancholic will learn how to live outside of self, to give more and in escaping from the self find happiness. The jaded will learn how to trust and to believe that the real deal exists.

Both of them will learn how to reach out and to accept that they deserve a chance at love. We make our own reality.... if you believe that this is good for the now.. so be it. A new lease on life.... even if forever seems so far away...


AMEN!
"Where's your handbag?"

While I was heading out to meet a high school buddy, my mama remarked, "Nasan handbag mo?" In the lowest pitch that I can muster, I said, "Ma naman, bakit ako magha-handbag?" (take the hint mom! hahahaha). So, she just handed me my handkerchief... I think she's in denial... hahaha :) Yes, I don't carry handbags nowadays, I just live one tumbling away from the office so why bother.

But my mama always give me handbags, buys me pink stuff (blouse, and even my tabo (yep!) and she casually remarked that I should wear my hair long again. Hmmmm....

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It's the new year! I guess, this is my song for the year, "Tuloy pa rin..." Looking forward to more adventures, and surprises.... and best of luck for my quixotic search... (I am a hopeless romantic, I swear!)...



"Kung sino man iyon, dapuan ng puso ko... tuloy pa rin ako.. :)" :)

AMEN!