Tuesday, December 30, 2014

The year that was

My blog has now been limited to being a summary of the year that passed. When I was younger, I will blog almost everyday. I am not sure if this is because I have more varied experiences when I was younger or if I have stopped growing since I am contented now with my life.

This year has thought me a lot of things. Especially, the last part of it. This is the year that I was closer to feeling mortal.

The highlight of my year was finding out that a friend has died. This friend is only a year older than I am and he was very much involved with the part of my life when I was searching for who I was and for my life's partner.

But as the years passed and priorities changed, I was not able to interact with him. We lost touch but that is life. We meet people along the journey who we need at that moment of our lives. He was a fixture on that time frame and I was lucky to have him as one of my kindred spirits.

Hearing of his death made me realized that this life is really short.  It also made me think that after death all of this will be gone. Thus, we need to keep every moment count. Each day is a blessing that we will never get back. Each day is different and I have been just wandering from day to day being carried by the mundane aspects of living.


I vow that I will be made more aware of this blessing. Of life and of what I can give. This experience is not to be taken for granted since it can be gone in an instant and we will only be as good as the memories that we leave behind.

I don't want to leave this life knowing that I could have done more. My next goal is to make each day memorable and to be more involved with the lives of others. I am not here solely for me, I am here to experience life with the souls that I chose to travel with. I will keep my end of the bargain and make our journey what we initially hoped it will be - full of laughter, good friends, good food, good experiences and connections that will last even to the next lifetime.

2015 will be my year of connections and may the universe conspire to help me be the person that I was before. Curious not only of what is happening around me but also curious of others and their journey.


Amen? Amen! :) 

Saturday, December 06, 2014

Baby boom

The first time we settled here in Melbourne we got to know a lot of fellow Pinoys who are living on a different environment. We joined them in making Australia our second home. In each gathering, we try to get to know them better and reconnect.

We didn't know how it happened. But after 2 years, suddenly each couple had their own babies. Don't get me wrong, babies are cute but it was just surprising to note that parties suddenly turn into an event similar to family reunions back home.

Instead of blood relatives, you get to see friends and their kids grown before your eyes. It's not the gray hair that makes me feel old.  It's the babies and kids that are now walking and developing into little adults.

I can't complain. For some reason, it is good for now, to look and enjoy kids from afar. It's fun to carry them for a few minutes compared to living with a baby 24/7. It must be hard. I really commend couples with kids and having to work for a living at the same time. From what I observed, it is lot of work!

Cheers to all the mommys and daddys out there! I am a fan of 1 youtube family who resonates closer to our situation. oliviahas2moms is our guilty pleasure and maybe someday we can have our own child but I think that's years away from our journey.

Until then,  we just try our best to live, love and laugh in our small space in the universe.

Amen? amen!

Friday, October 03, 2014

The Lesbian Lifestyle

It's been about eight (8) years since I came out as a lesbian. So much has changed since then. I never in my wildest dream thought that I will be with someone who loves me as much as my partner does and I never realized that I am capable of so much love.

I gained more than 50 pounds. You'll never realize it but the weight creeps in. It seems to be proportional to the amount of happiness you're gaining. Thus, if weight is the price I need to pay for being happy so be it! I would rather be plump and gay than thin and grumpy. :)

All of my friends are straight women and gay guys. I have a few lesbian friends (about 3 I think) and that's it. Not having enough lesbian friends is not a major problem for me since I don't think I fit into the lesbian lifestyle.

1.) I am not a radical feminist.
2.) I don't really think that all men are evil (ok some are but we also have evil women :)).
3.) I like green jokes and other politically incorrect jokes as well (which will offend most lesbians).
4.) I am happy and content (most lesbians I know look angry all the time).
5.) I like womanly activities like gossiping, pedicures and coloring my hair.

I think I like being with gay guys more than lesbian women since gay guys seem to be more happy and give me positive vibes (fellow lesbians, please don't judge me).  Straight girls on the other hand give me such comfort and they too make me full of vaginal energies.

With this, I think I just need to explore more. Maybe, there are more lesbians out there like me (who knows). But I think I should make an effort at least.

That will be my goal for the next years. Get more lesbian friends in my circle of life! :)

Amen? Amen!


Thursday, January 02, 2014

Change is a must

I saw this post from a friend and I completely agree with this one.

"Why do we go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And then people see you differently. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving"

We long for home when we are away and we get to realize how happy little moments, celebrations were. When you come home, you enjoy each moment with magnified happiness proportionate to the amount of time you were gone. You also are more thankful of the people who matter the most. It's realizing their value from afar.

This is what life taught me and I am grateful.

AMEN? Amen! 

Monday, December 30, 2013

2014 - back to the horses (Year of the wooden horse)


I don't blog much this past year. I think my 2013 can just fill 2 web pages. This is a far cry from blog posts from the past years when every month has atleast 3 entries.

We have grown up I guess, or we have gravitated towards facebook, twitter and instagram where we don't need to construct whole sentences. But it's not to say that it's not good just maybe a reflection of what we are evolving into. Less words, and more pictures and videos. In my view, that's not so bad.

What do I have to say about 2013? It's our first full year in Melbourne. It was a blast. I had more connections here as it was compared to when  I was in the Philippines. I guess since most of my friends already have families or busy with their own careers. Here in Melbourne, since we don't have family, we treat each other as family.

2013 is about reconnecting with friends, making new ones and realizing the importance of family.

2014 - what will the theme be? For me, I don't want to go to the losing weight again since I know I will work out then lose some then gain some. But this doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things, as long as my clothes fit me still.

I will make this my theme for 2014. Conquer (or try) my fears! Gulp.

I have lots of fears. Heights, bodies of water, flying (yes,you heard that right) and talking to strangers.  Do I have what it takes? Let's find out. I have 1 year to work on this. Hopefully, I get to blog that I can already swim, climb something and be comfortable in my own skin.

Thank you 2013, it was wonderful.

Hello 2014! Let's go! 

Friday, December 27, 2013

Family Vacation - Dec 2013 - Davao

In my 30+ years of existence, we never had a family vacation outside of Luzon. Last December 2013, mama, my bro and I went to Davao to "train" mama to ride a plane. I think she liked it and it's going to be the first of many travels for her.

 I miss them but I am looking forward to our next adventure! :)












Friday, December 28, 2012

The year that was

This blog has been the avenue for my thoughts but lately I haven't been blogging as much as I used to. This is the constant thing all this time, I have been blogging about the previous year and my resolutions for the next year.

Last year, I wanted change and movement for 2012. I think I got that one covered.  I have traveled to four countries (Hongkong, Singapore, India and Australia) and totally uprooted our bearings and moved to Australia for work. Talk about mastering oneself and getting resolutions resolved for once.

2011 was about career change, 2012 was about geographical change and 2013 should be about personal change.

I have been wanting to reinvent myself once more but I think I don't have the resolution pegged strongly as I would want. But this coming year, it will be about self improvement both physically, mentally and spiritually. 

Ok, I should get a list of to dos. This may be outdated but I do believe in making a list. It makes me stay focused I guess.

1. Get enough exercise. Enuf said.. phew!
2. Read more. Having a kindle really helps!
3. Learn a new programming skill (this is a must!)
4. Save more.
5. Master the art of deadma - don't be affected by negative vibes


Well that's a shorter list. But I do hope 2013 brings a lot of prosperity, love and success to everyone. My God, this I really love.. more good glorious FOOD!

Cheerios!