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Mulawin Thoughts

Originally uploaded by amazonangbading. One of the highs of having a very looonnnggg vacation is watching soap operas that I only see during commercials on weekends. I always wanted to watch this since like Daimos I like watching characters with Wings... o sya... even Whisper commercials... o sya... because I really like birds.. BIG birds... being half man and half bird really helps... (hihihihihi)

This show really has a heart. At first, you'll get disoriented by the seemingly offlandish costumes but when you get use to them it's such a heartwarming story! It's about love, family and relationships.

Even if I LOVE RICHARD & RAYMOND Gutierrez (I swear there are times that I think Raymond is the one playing Aguiluz), I really like Gabriel (Dennis Trillo). In all of the characters, I am seemingly drawn to him. Maybe because I have been in his place in numerous instances that I dare not count... loving someone... who you cannot have.. ouch!

Shopa-olic takes Famfanga

I have a friend who in my opinion is the Capampangan version of Becky. Once we were walking along the aisles of SM Pampanga... all was well, we were chatting away when we passed Kamiseta (a clothing store) and I swear, she immediately had this trance-like expression on her face. Whatever the topic of our conversation was, she suddenly tugged at me and said, "Anto, tingin muna tayo..." ohh-ohh... quality time suddenly turned into shopping time.

Don't get me wrong, I like shopping. But I only shop when I have something to buy, but this girl really loves shopping. I will always ask her, "Di ba nde na magkasya sa room mo ang mga clothes, shoes, bags, etc mo?" and she will just smile and with a wicked glint in her eyes she will say," Oo, but I get to attend numerous functions and what if que-horror I run out of things to wear!" End of discussion and I will enter the store with her.

With our shopping trips, I will get to see the di…
Life and Cockroaches.....

Ik!!!! A cockroach scurrying around... ikkk... another one.... and without batting an eyelash my mom began squishing them under her slippers... and she asked me to help her... but for the life of me I can't. I just stood there and watched. Then, one slipped past her and was hurrying towards me... what does a girl to do? I closed my eyes, said a prayer and said aloud.. " I am sorry," then I felt the internal organs exploding and its body pounded into the one-dimensional world. My mom laughed aloud.. "Kanino ka nag-so-sorry?" I told her... " Sa ipis...", and she just laughed.

I don't know, I've always been sensitive to flies, ants, mosquitoes, cockroaches. I can't really kill them, unless they really are a torment to my existence and I say sorry but you just pisses me off and kills these creatures. I don't know... but as I've thought of it... I may be saving them for a better karmic existence. The cockroac…
seven years from now..

Came across this article. This is something to look forward to...

2012 - Planetary Ascension year 2012

2012 is by many separate sources of wisdom seen as being a portal into what some people call the Golden Age. 2012 marks, according to the The Mayan Calendar, the ending of Time as we know it and as something old die something new will be born. The Mayan perspective of 2012 and the current times we live in is very similar to the view of Kalki and the Golden Age Foundation who is also co-organising the Oneness Festival. The concept of a coming Golden Age is widely recognised among many spiritual authors, spiritual traditions and teachers. "I think that by 2012 you will have people that are enlightened (open, honest, caring, loving, united to the divine) and those that still seek humanity's lower natures (suffering, misery, hate, separation from the divine) but at least the scale may be tipping more toward enlightened."Hermes Trismegistus
The way of the tao
I was always fascinated by the Tao De Ching (the way). This was written by Lao Tzu and I find the words so enriching and helps you meditate and practice moderation in life. This I find very useful:The best soldier is not violent.The best fighter is not angry.The best winner is not contentious.The best employer is humble.This is known as the power of not striving,as ability in human relations,and as being in accord with heaven.This site contains the whole of the Tao De Ching :
Franny and Zooey - The Holdens anew

I am in a sort of literary sabbatical right now... (but I also have to study for my upcoming MBA exam) but I just can't wait to read the books that have been piling all these months. I bought this book a year ago and I have been putting its reading for awhile being busy with other books and other stuff. But when I finally had the gall to read it... it really took my breath away!

This is one the best religious books I've ever read! Franny and Zooey are siblings. A member of the infamous Glass clan known for their prodigious, savant child members. But now, in this book, they've all grown up. I can't fill in all the details but this I can tell, I haven't read a book this riveting for some time.

I would like to quote something from the Internet-

"This beautiful revelatory story is so suffused with empathy, humanity and spirituality, I had very nearly the same reaction as Franny. Zooey/Salinger has offered a way out of Franny…


Originally uploaded by amazonangbading. Meet the guy who dethroned Piolo in my heart! hehehe =p

Christian's Ballad for Moi!

hands 2 heaven!

As I watch you move
Across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave
The dawn knows no reprieve
God, give me strength when I am leaving

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace
Tears run down your face
I whisper words of love so softly
I can't believe this pain
It's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

[Chorus:] [2x]
Tonight I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come another day
I must pack my bags and say goodb…


Originally uploaded by amazonangbading. Jessica Z - My soul sister?

I have always been a fan of Jessica Zafra. From the fist time I've read her book and heard her commentary on TV when she was a talk show host, I think I've found my soulmate. I know I would be killed or worst consumed alive by her if she finds out that an insignificant cute person like myself would even conceived of the idea that I am an equal to the World Conqueror such as Ms Z! Some of my college friends once remarked that I look like her... but in this aspect (I hope this will not reach Ms Zafra's ears... ) I think I am cuter hehehehe .... o sya... I think I am taller. hehehe...

I have acquired her book.. Chicken Pox for the sould (thanks to the PB gift certicate that I've won in our project's Christmas party last year), and lo and behold... She is a Sagittarian! Hmmm... maybe her ascendant is libra or gemini... anyway, my narcisistic self cannot help but make some comparisons....

Phallyx Conversations
I have always been amazed by the sexcapades of my friends and so amused by their tales. from slippery condoms to bloody i.... but I haven't had such a talk for months and ta-ra... a friend and I were having dinner, when we saw... TV personality Ryan Agoncillo in the other table.My friend told me... "Maliit sya... ". I told her,"Yes, obvious naman sa TV na short sya." And she smiled wickedly and bemingly said to me... "I was not talking about his height mother... " "Ohhh.... hehe :) " Then, we searched the restaurants for cute fafas and I had my friend tell me what their sizes are.. (This is the friend who have thrown me a condom-a used one at that at the dinner table once.. ) so I really got used to her oh so hilarious tiltillating ways.... Some useful information for ladies :1.) The "rock" is measured in gay lingo in terms of "kamay". Everybody now, form a fist. That is the unit of measurement we sh…
some thoughts...

I have always been respectful of my dreams because it serves as a guide to me, when I am making decisions and sometimes I dream of things that will happen. I think many of us have this intuitive selves but we dare not speak of it for fear of being ridiculed. But a recent dream that I had involved.. waves....

The night that the tsunami came to Asia... I had this dream that I was at a beach and there was a big wave coming right at us. It was a wall of water! I tried to run but I can't but then I woke up. And while I was having breakfast, there in the news... Tsunami claimed lives... yikes! I almost choked on my coffee.....

Resolutions, Forecasts, etc...

The year is 2005, and I think the happenings and events for this year should be anticipated. There will be a marked collective resolution for change - revolutionary change in our individual lives. The Age of Acquarius is truly at hand. The calamities for this year... are like pangs of childbirth. We should live to see things get better.

Many will have resolutions for a better year, I myself included. I think much of the pain in this world is caused by too much emphasis on the id. The I, me, mine thinking... it's high time to get outside the ego shell and reach out to the others. Let us strive not only to make ourselves better but also to help others who are in need. Easier said than done I should say but I can't help but think if my life will be extinguished at this particular time... what did I do in my life? All is futile... blown by the wind.

This is the time for radical change. To be more active and to make a difference... we should be empow…
Selfish Random thoughts for 2005...

It's the year 2005... whew! Another year has passed and for me... I guess it's time to sit back and think about the year that was. What can I say about this year? What lessons have I learned? What grownup thing did I do and acquire? This year was a mouthful for all. I get to learn more things about me... accept things that I cannot control and just be...

First, just some random thoughts...

1.) I love running. This year I came to realize that I haven't done much running physically but I have done much running in many aspects of my life... from realities I cannot accept... I can't even read a part of a book or a movie with a confrontation in it. That I guess explains my escapist tendencies.. if I could run.. I would... Is it because I really can't face harshness or something that is breaks the harmony in my world?

2.) I love my friends and family. I can't live without them... for this year... I think I have neglected them... …